= = = = =THE FREE MAN= = = = =

This weekend , I've been thinking for this 'problems' which occurred to me . . . . . sometimes I

thought this problems will solve as time passes but actually it just can't . . . . every times my tears

keep on dropping when I'm recalling the situation that faced this few days . If they're my girl

friend, I would be more better because if we're not happy we can choose to leave each other , but

problem is they are not my girl friend ,can't simply say leave or be together . Three words can

describe my feelings for this 'problems' , despair . . . . . loneliness . . . . . disappointed .


Still remember every time when I got a lot of emotional feelings need to be express out , only

way is to share my feelings with them . Haha . . . I know maybe they're quite reluctant to hear

what I was trying to say or lazy to know it , but unfortunately that's the way I trying to let them

know about my life and situation . After I don't know when I was having some argument with

them , I admitted some times I do have some bad temper behavior on bad mood . Since then , I

seldom talk with them , not even the feelings that hidden inside my brain . GOSH ! ! ! ! I really

felt lonely in this weekend , no talk , just music and studies accompanied with me . My favorite is

talking but not for this weekend , all because of this 'problems' . This afternoon , I just got a

sudden intention to get back to them . . . . . but I just can't make it . I can't ' pass ' my ego

personality . REGRET word displayed on my FOREHEAD , I shouldn't start this argument from

the beginning . . . . . . . the solution for me now is to WAIT . . . . waiting for the chances to come ! !

! ! Suddenly I recalling the issues of (WHY I WANNA CREATE BLOG) ? ? ? ? This question

been bothering me since now . . . . . firstly my reason is because I influenced by my secondary

school friends 's blog , one day I accidentally saw my friend's personal message displayed a blog '

address . . . . I was thinking why that 'stupid' guy will have a BBBLLOOGG ! ! !

Unbelievable matters for me , as I was

concern that his writing skill and personality wouldn't allows him from creating a blog ? ? ? ? But

I still pressed the link and see his ' work of art ' . . . . the result is really surprised me . . . although

his word is unproper matters but I can seen that his word is full of touching feelings , especially a

tittle that wrote by mandarin word . . . I tried myself very hard to see the content of this '

mandarin article ' . I was touched after saw his article . . . . I can't recall it back the content but

it's something to do with his love relationship .

Maybe that's the ' feelings ' that inspired me to go into this BIG NEW WORLD (blog)that

full of anonymous around the world . Starting I just want to express all my feelings that been

through in daily routines . But I'm touched that all my friends especially my secondary school 's

friends 'accidentally' discovered my blog , and give me some advices , Thanks . . . . . . .

But this moments , A lots of doubts hanging on my mind , (WHY I WANNA CREATE

BLOG) ? ? ? ? But actually the REAL REASON I created this blog . . . . . . . . after few minutes I

've found my CONFIRMED ANSWER , actually is not inspired by my friend's blog . Is because

there's no other way for me to SPEAK OUT MY VOICES in my mind . . . . this is the only way of

releasing my ' word ' that hidden inside my MIND . . . . . Luckily everyday I can chat with my

friends , but at night only way is to speak with BLOG ! ! ! ! !

Erm . . . . . . it's 12.45pm already , should I be getting ready to revise my HE (stupid history subject) or whatever subject that be held in next week's exam ? ? Why my spirits of study history is GONE ever since I'm finished my SPM (SIJIL PELAJARAN) . Maybe after 6 months I had boycott with STUDY this word for too many times . . . . during that time I been playing , sleeping , enjoying the GREATNESS of being a FREE MAN .

After I entered college all situation seems to be difference , mainly because all my friends 're 'too excited' on entering college , so their curiosity of the selected subjects they're chosen really 'Great' . But for me which previously a science stream student will has some difficulty of getting used to all the 'fresh' subject (especially english educated accounting) . Economy . . . . secondary school i didn't touch this subject before , moreover this time it's using english word ! ! ! Luckily I'm managed to understood the 'theories' . . . . . . If chemistry or physic maybe I will be more 'relax' of understanding the 'english educated' word .

This wednesday back to Klang I would think that I will more concentrate on my revision , mainly because at K.L rented room there ,I always 'non-stop' watching Hong kong drama ( 绝代商骄) , hang out with my friends , and doing something useless . . . . . . . . (-.-)But unfortunately , yesterday I took 3hours only can finished revised chapter 5 and 7 of HE notes . GOSH ! ! ! ! where is my sejarah(history) spirit ! ! ! ! ! FOrm 5 my favourite subject is sejarah but why in college I can't even tried myself to memorize it in detail . . . . . ? ? ? ? I want my SPIRIT BACK ! ! ! ! !

This tuesday I wore 'mouth' mask to school . . . . all people seems like giving me a curious eyes ' issit this guy got any disease ' ? ? ? ? CCCCHHHHOOOOOIIII . . . . that day I just take a pre caution , nothing to do with H1N1 pandemic OK ! ! ! ! Some of my friends purposely keeping a certain distances with me . . . . .I know they're joking , and I'm not mind but I really 'kill' them of making fun of this issues . . . . if like this ,then last sunday i shouldn't hang out with my friends which 2 of them is from China 'scare man' . . . . .





TODAY MY ' DJ ' RECOMMENDED ME A SONG WHICH IS FROM Colbie Calliat NAMED Fallin For You . . . . THE LYRIC IS JUST AWESOME , AMAZED ME AGAIN . . . . BUT TRULY NOTHING TO DO WITH MY FEELING . . . . . . HAHAHA

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

Song Information

Released June 29, 2009
Recorded 2009
Genre Pop, Ballad
Length 3:34
Label Universal Republic
Writer Colbie Caillat and Rick Nowels
Producer Rick Nowels,John Shanks and Ken Caillat

Finally . . . . . . . . . . . finally this wednesday I can get back to Klang , every time I'll be tremendously excited and happy . . . . . . Because I can spend my entire times with my family by talking , sleeping , shopping , eating and most importantly ' salary time ' Hahahaha . . . . Normally , I be getting back Klang every friday afternoon when I finished my History subject .

But this week is different . . . know why ? ? ? This week I decided to skip 2 days classes which is thursday and friday . next week I'll be having our last semester exam or should be final examination , so no attendance is record during this week's classes .(mean we're free to skip our classes) . Our friends planned to skip the IA(accounting) lecture since the lecturer so ' fierce ' and always banned us from talking during lectures . But I strongly suggested that we should ' see ' our accounting lecturer one last time before we 're regret ' Actually I lazy to back so fast' . But after I'm back Klang only I realized that this decision that I had made is truly wrong . . .

After listened the lecturer mumbling for around 2 hours , our guys began 100% awaken from our dreams . . . . because during the lectures me and my another friend are listening to music without paying ' full attention ' of what that (fierce lecturer) trying to explain . We 're packing our bag and ready to get back klang as soon possible , I just afraid the KL SENTRAL is crowded by rushing people . But luckily , the LRT station is not as many people as I've expected , maybe I still got chances to have a seat inside the LRT . As usual , when we're arrived the KLCC station there's a lots a lots of peoples included foreign tourists occupied the LRT without any empty spaces left . I also damn shy while ' sticked ' with a young girl in the LRT , 'I think she 's younger than me one year ' , and she's also keep on smiling at me , maybe

At last we 're arrived to our destination , but still need to take another train(KTM) and suffer for another hour only can reach my hometown , GOSH ! ! ! ! the train is 5.03pm arrive and now the time is 4.57pm , Me and my friend quickly rushed down the tunnel and queue in order to get a better seat . But unfortunately , as I 've expected the people is tremendously large , how I gonna get inside that train ! ! ! ! !

When that KTM arrived , and opened the STUPID door ,all people seems like rushing into a place of money ,why Malaysian so 'good' attitude in rushing , the peoples inside the KTM haven't out of that door ,the outside people straight away going inside without letting others out first . At first I was looking at them with a curious eyes (why they do something like that) unbelievable . After that a malay girl can't stand it anymore by getting sticked , she say WE'RE HAVEN'T OUT OF KTM STOP PUSHING US IN AGAIN with a loud tones . . . . . that time I smiling at them , but also with a disappointed feelings .I decided to wait another train because the situation really freaking me OUT ! ! ! !

15 minutes passed , the second train finally arrived , but WHY the people still so mucHH . . . . . although its not as many as the previous one . I told my friend that this time I will used all my energy to force myself in getting inside that STUPID KTM ! ! ! Finally I have managed to get inside but in ' crucial ' condition . . . . . . . I finally figure out why my friend told me that don't take train after 5 pm , because its really really really small spaces for me to stand ,or should I say can't bearly stand steady with holding a stupid hanger . That moment I do really felt a sudden headache and stomache . Headache is because the air inside is very little for so many of us to breath , stomache is because just now all people in front of me force them selves to get inside , they pushed me accidentally by their ' belly ' .

Station after station I had passed through , and seems like the people're ' disappear ' one by one , I finally can take a deep breath but a nasty breath because the surrounding is freaking stinks ' smell of sweat and fart ' Hahahaha . . . . . . . an hours later which reminded me with the time 6.25 displayed in front of my eyes . I had finally reached my Telok Gadong station which means I in Klang ! ! ! ! ! ! ! WHAT A EXPERIENCE . . . . . . a truly sweaty RIDE ! ! ! ! Hope next week I won't encounter this ever again . . . . . . . I shouldn't attend my accounting lectures and just get back Klang as soon as possible . THis lessons is just OPEN MY MIND WIDELY about what Malaysian truly are . . . . . . .MALAYSIA BOLEH ! ! ! !

A JOURNEY OF A THOUSANDS MILES OF SUFFERING MUST BEGIN WITH A SINGLE MISTAKE T0T

Its already 1.30pm , I'm reached the train and waiting for my friends arrive at Subang Jaya train statiom there . WHen I'm waiting for my stupid friend's car . . . . I started to counted how many days we never see each others before . Ermmmmm . . . . I've been thinking this issues nearly 1 minutes and finally have an answer . . . . its been 2 months since our last gathering on June . TO be honest , I really want to see my friend face whether they got any ' transformation ' ,but after that day I can confirmed that all my friends still the same pattern ' like to tease people '.

GOSH ! ! ! ! This saturday is my last day of gym 2 . . .which also a test of 30 credit marks . . . That day i do feel nervous , happy , excited , but most important is sad feeling . . . sad of lost contact with all my precious gym member's friends . Hahaha . . . . but luckily I've already ask everyone for msn and also cellphone number for sure . Before 10am . . . Our group 2 members was called to do rehearsal before the event started . One of member which responsible for the music part is ready to showed his ' energetic ' songs that combined 4 or 5 songs into 1 if I'm not mistaken . As usual , our members still absent 2 person because they still got important things to do and arrive before 11pm which is our test begins . . . .at the first they discussing the how the steps start and stop , but as time passed . . . . they 're still discussing the same issues 'don't want this and that '.
After few minutes . . . .I started to get bored of listened to them bumbling around the corner , then I quickly go badminton court watch their performances would be more better ! ! ! !

After 11am , we were called by assistant coach for further information . . . is to wait at the gym class , but unfortunately the weather began raining like hell 'shit we still need to climb mountain ' .No more choices but to wait for another 1 hour in gym room for further instructions . . . Though I'm felt very disappointed of that decision , but its also a good news . . . . because its time for our guys to gossiping and chit chat with each others . . .our guy 11 persons non-stop talking and talking until we 're forgot our hunger 'meter' (we take our breakfast just a little).THe main content of our conversation is of course about the guys topics ' woman and cars' hahaha . . . . but we're would not to gossip our leader behavior (perverted behavior of course) , and seems like all people also agreed what I was tried to ' explained ' the meaning . . Finally , 1 hour passed like an lighting at outside 'raining '. But luckily the weather didn't seem as dark as before . . . . so we 're to perform our test now . In just 10 minutes , we must perform all we are learned from our gym lessons to the judges . But i think our group 2 didn't performed so well than group 1 because their group focused on dancing and movements , our performs only exercises which included running , star jump , sit-up , pumping , and others . After our group performed finish , we were instructed to play station that divided by 4 parts . . . 1)climb mountain 2)lifting 75kg guy up 4 storeys building and down . 3)running the hill 8 laps 4) 'fall mountain and climb back mountain'

Physically , our team spent nearly 2 and a half hours to finished all the task we' were given . I'm glad that we 're made it in just 2.30 hours but unfortunately we also lose the competition . . . in our mind keeps on thinking why our group will lose . . .even all 3 of our thursday groups lost 'orange also don't have' .

Although all our team were lost during this competition . . . .but I can 100% sure that our spirit is 100% win all the crowd . After this few months of hard training and sweating exercises , I really gained a lots and a lot of experiences especially in the exercise motion , the most enjoyable part is that after finished our training ,our guys will grouped together and go have lunch . I would not forget the moments we're been before . . . . this memories will be a good and sweet things ever in my life .

Such a beautiful saturday morning . . . . today i will be performing a test for my gym co-co programme , kinda nervous but I'm sure our team members and me can make it (didn't mention win) . But this thursday when we're still practicing our moves and steps before our performs . . . . that coach order us to do some ' drop some weight ' games. . . 1stly we need to tell the coach our true weight . . .and then coach give us 45 min to do some 'freestyles' exercise . . . technically should say let us choose our wanted exercises and train in 45 min only dismiss our game . . . . . . Wonderful moment happened AGAIN ......our perverted leader called us to joging through the 'steeper' area . . . He suggested us to jog by hand holding hands . . .of course our guys won't agree with him since this action was too ' useless ' , I think if we're run with just one by one . . .we can do better than that . . .but the leader insisted his 'idea' and holded a girl's hand without asking her ermission first . . .@.@

Wednesday which is today just finished all my important schedules times . I'm happy that my best friend just text me by inviting me this sunday night for a 'BEER gathering ' . Although is just me and him be going , but that's why i more excited because I like to chat with him 'solo' style . . . .haha ! ! ! Still remember last 3 months when i haven't go for college , we always hang out together no matter on watching movies , football at 'mamak' stall , or even playing cards . Haha....quite missed that moment we been together , I'll reminded myself that we 're always be the best friend ever . I owe him too much of telephone bills . . . .every times when football matches held , we will phone each other by ' discussing the matches result ' actually we're talk something which linked to our past in our secondary school . Each time duration of chatting take at least 1 hour . . . its seems quite abnormal especially our guys can talk until such long with only cellphone but not face to face . . . .

Haizzz...1 more day left before i going back to Kuala Lumpur for college , why the time can't stop for a moment and let us finish our important work first . Maybe that's the unique of the earth , anyway I still have some times to finish my accounting homework , GOSHHH ! ! ! Why this week got 5 questions which included income statement , balance sheet , and also trial balance...how I gonna finish this all in just 3 and a half hours ? ? ? ? 'some hours of watching drama'

-2 hours later.....I'm still working on my question 4 , WHY STILL HAVEN'T BALANCE YET ! ! ! ! SO much of correction been made one by one to make my answer correct , still got 450 dollars yet to balance the whole sheet . . . How am I gonna do in order to finish this question . . . . . after that i just leave it , just leave it 450 dollars unbalance . Because I'm running out of patience . . . . .

5.3o pm showing in front of me . . . . but I still believe I have done all questions at last........finally i can continue my Warrior Orochi (psp game) . Suddenly the weather become cloudy , ightning strike sounds interrupted my mood by just a sudden . After few minutes , as I had expected , it's rained quite heavily . . . . . but know why my eyes keep on blinking again ? ? ? Yesterday go shopping with my family also encountered this situation . . . . why now I'm blinking again ? ? ? I found that blinking provides moisture to the eye by irrigation using tears and a lubricant the eyes secrete. The eyelid provides suction across the eye from the tear duct to the entire eyeball to keep it from drying out.But keeps on blinking in such speed wouldn't be normal cases . This blinking symptoms has affected my entire mood meter from 70% to 20% . I can't even open wide my mouth . . .


TODAY something really happened to me but i can't figure it OUT ! ! ! !

Talking about our leader from our gym group.....I'm really speechless about his 'unfair' behavior . I still remember this thursday our gym 2 group 're having a test...actually that's not technically a gym test , its a physical test which climbing our school nearby 'mountain'(actually is a higher place) by 15 m heights . That day i really freaked out , mostly because our co-co programme is gym...what on earth should teacher call us to do this kind of activities test ' climbing that stupid mountain '.

After finished our physical 'warm up' exercises , my sweat started to flew like waterfall . After that , teacher call us to regroup at the football court which near the 'mountain' area . And order us to climb that mountain one by one , we all stunted for few second . Because the main problems
1)The place is muddy,yesterday just rained .
2)Bro.....our activities suppose to be gym-ing instead of climbing mountain,leave that job to climber Please.........
But finally we also followed our teacher orders , firstly our leader climb and then assistant turn . As I've expected , our female assistant sure have many problem of climbing especially lost her balances...our male leader also expected will act 'hero' and 'rescue' the assistant in order to continue our ' test' .
You know how that leader trying to help her...?? By holding her backward body..which near her XXX . That moment i get stunted...what on earth are you trying to do , I also can't even dare to watch anymore . After that , which finish our class , i tell my friend about my 'hero ' leader behaviour . But actually not only me who complaint about this problem , all my gym partners friend no matter male or female , also have a negative impression about that ' perverted leader '

HAHAHAHA......leader you 're a dead man....your image now is ' perverted guy'

Its been a tired moment for me today.....simply because yesterday I've trained myself too much during gym 'lesson'. Now whole body muscles sore or arching like being punched by hammer . Actually there's no doubt know the feeling of tender muscles for hours, and sometimes days after working out . But, is that tenderness good or is it bad? Should your muscles ache after exercise?

Actually I been working gym for roughly half year, I enjoyed the feeling of getting myself more oil-less,tiredness,and importantly is sweat-ness.Maybe I borned to be sweat.....Haha ! ! ! How to say.....should be my hormone problem eversince I'm getting thinner....I'm still remember when i was still 16 years old,my weight can say is the most 'unbelievable' size...83kg.A lot of teasing word accompany with me,when my friends like to take me as topic for making nonsense jokes,I didn't care any words of them...I keep on enjoy my teenages life by eating and drinking 'high calories stuff'.

Until I've met a girl....she is not as pretty as expected.As far as I concern, I like the way she talk with me...the kind of 'fairy tales' and 'loveliness' feelings that makes me get attracted ! ! ! !
But the problem is that...lack of confidence which faced by a lot of guys especially me ,a damn fat ass.....So during my summer holidays which still got another 2 months before 2008 arrive,I bought a lot of exercise equipment in order to lose all my 'unwanted' weights.Weeks after Weeks passed as I continue to get rid of my fats,the most prefer exercise is weightlifting, because the most advantages of doing that is to make us looked more muscular .If you just want to be firm ,then weight training is the only solution.Not to mention the running machine,usually takes me maximum 20 minutes to finish my daily schedules.By having this few exercise everyday,after 2months my secondary school is open.All my classmate and friends amazed with my 'size'.They even can't recognize me ...from 83kg to 68kg,What you think????

And i also bought a new spectacles to changed my overall look.....Although I'm succeed from losing weight,but i really wanna thanks that girl,is she who gives me motivation and determination to lose my weight.And the truth is,I noticed that I'm not fall in love with her..just I using her as my encouragement.Until now we already lost contact with each others....But I truly want to say THANKS to her...

In college...Im still working hard for my 'six pack'..I wanna make myself looked more muscular than my friends,coz honestly none of my friends is muscular enough.Even the sports activities,I chose gym as my major exercise,that 'devil trainer' is gonna 'kill' me before I still able to get my credit hours of gym.
So far so good,just hope I won't consume too much of food and maintain my exercise more frequently in my daily lifestyles.....MUSCLE MAN I"M COMING.........

I been started my studies,or should i say 'college life' for almost 3 months...i quite enjoyed this 3 months in college.Perhaps is because the course that I had chosen 'accounting' is matched with my future path career...for this semester I only need to took 5 subject which most probably includes accounting,economics,business maths, english and finally history of Malaysian..

-But overall I am satisfied with those subject...especially economics, I like to know more about world market eversince I was ages of 14.Just a sudden interest about how and what factor can influence the whole market price,certainly is how it's reacted when recession occurs.But unfortunately ,my marks is can't even describe myself as 'economics lover'. In classes,my marks is 33 out of 40,and most of my friends is scored higher than me such as 35,36,38 and even 40...Haizzzz ! ! !

The main reason is because of my 'laziness' attitude....every night when i came back from college, the priority problems that i wanna deal is my drama addiction.Every weekday night,i can take 3hours by watching dramas and others useless stuffs..Sometimes I'm felt a sudden guilty in my mind...but after that,all concerns seems auto-cleaned and i back to drama again.

Gosh...how i gonna win my friends if I'm still act like I'm was in secondary school time(playing and enjoying).And now i hate my cousin,is because last month he introduced me a game named 'THESIMS 3'.HOLY COW....I 'm also having addiction of playing that game...TOO MANY ADDICTION WHICH TRYING TO KILL MY RESULTS....

HOW am i gonna do in order to get rid of those kind of addiction...I really can't stand it, I don't wanna get a lower marks than my friends...